I am a little distracted.
I have been a little off.
Every time I think about tomorrow, I get little pangs of anxiety.
My brain tells me that everything will be fine. It will be simple and quick, no need for worry or fuss.
But try and tell that to my heart. My heart is saying is a whole other story.
My heart is aching. My heart is full of fear.
My baby is having surgery.
I have been a little off.
Every time I think about tomorrow, I get little pangs of anxiety.
My brain tells me that everything will be fine. It will be simple and quick, no need for worry or fuss.
But try and tell that to my heart. My heart is saying is a whole other story.
My heart is aching. My heart is full of fear.
My baby is having surgery.
It is minor, very minor surgery, but I can't help it.
Jake is tongue tied and tomorrow he will be untied.
It needs to happens.
It is a good thing that is going to happen.
But I can't help but worry. I feel kind of silly for worrying. There are many parents out there with terminally ill and very sick children that have been through so much more than I can ever imagine. Their daily battles are mind boggling and gut wrenching. My worries about sometime so small and simple seems silly and a bit of an over-kill.
But, still I worry.
Every time I look at him, I just want to cuddle him in my arms and never let go.
He will not understand tomorrow.
It will be scary for him.
Many strangers in a place he does not know.
And they will put him totally to sleep.
Will he wake up?
Silly worries, I know.
But I can't help it.
I am his Mom and he is my Baby.
It needs to happens.
It is a good thing that is going to happen.
But I can't help but worry. I feel kind of silly for worrying. There are many parents out there with terminally ill and very sick children that have been through so much more than I can ever imagine. Their daily battles are mind boggling and gut wrenching. My worries about sometime so small and simple seems silly and a bit of an over-kill.
But, still I worry.
Every time I look at him, I just want to cuddle him in my arms and never let go.
He will not understand tomorrow.
It will be scary for him.
Many strangers in a place he does not know.
And they will put him totally to sleep.
Will he wake up?
Silly worries, I know.
But I can't help it.
I am his Mom and he is my Baby.
26 comments:
Oh, boys... Mine are covered in bruises and band-aids too.
If you didn't worry...I'd worry. Moms are wired and built to worry and I'm glad we are. We have instincts and wings to shelter our babies that nobody else has.
But, like you said, it's a simple surgery and it will be fine. Just imagine all the chatter and fun ahead once he's no longer tongue tied. What a blessing you're providing him.
Sophie was tongue-tied and had her frenulum laser cut when she was a wee 10 days old. It was a simple office procedure. While I know it is more complicated when they are older, take comfort knowing that it is very common. He'll be fine!! Hugs!!
I felt the exact same way when my youngest had eye surgery. There is nothing worse but the good thing is, he is so young he will never remember it. But you will.
Anything that involves our babies is a major thing. You have every right to be worried and concerned -- you're a mom! Saying prayers! I'm sure he'll be fine!
~ Jennifer
Two of my cousins had the same thing done! Best of luck to you and your baby... we'll be thinking of you during this! :)
Oh sweetie! I was a MESS when Tristan had to have tubes put in his ears. It killed me to think of him being put under, even for 10 minutes. I cried and cried. You're totally fine (and completely normal and wonderful).
But I will be praying because surgery is surgery. :) It'll be good though.
awwww hugs!! mommy and baby are in our prayers!! good luck tomorrow! :)
Oh that dreaded worry. Comes in the mama package tightly wound never to separate from our hearts....I totally feel for you lady. All will be fine but worry is part of the deal. :-)
You guys will be in my thoughts...
Lee
Sending hugs and prayers and good thoughts your way. I'm sure it will all be fine, but it's ok to worry. That's totally normal :)
I worried too. Recovery was difficult. Baby cried. But you'll be able to comfort him, because you are his mommmy. and He will wake up, and he will heal quickly. and know that through your worry, you have an army of moms who are praying with you and for you and your baby. Because we always pray for each other. It's just what we do.
Oh my. I have no idea how I'd go with the same stress. All the very best for all of you. Will say some prayers for you and Jacob and the doctors.
Aww I have tears in my eyes reading this, you are such a wonderful caring mother! Your baby will be fine, kids bounce back quickly. I am thinking of you both!
Lots of prayers and hugs for you and Jacob!
Sending you all my warmest thoughts and wishes.
Don't ever feel silly for worrying about the safety and well being of your children. I truly believe that the strength of your concern is a direct reflection of the strength of your love. And you clearly love all of your kids very much. Let us know how it goes.
When Jonathan had the tubes put in his ears I was beside myself with worry. You would have thought he was going in for brain surgery.
You are his mama. You're going to worry and fret and hold him close. It's what we do.
Hang in there. We'll be praying.
Good Luck with surgery!
My baby is having surgery next Wed. I haven't been able to sleep for over a week, and I think it's from worrying!
Oh hon, he's going to be just fine. Cuddle and treasure your little one to your heart's content. And tomorrow.... one moment at a time!
Try not to worry! You and your son are in my prayers.
I'm sure it is all over by now! I'm sure it went well!
Good luck! It is ok to worry you are a mommy and he is your baby.
I hope everything goes well. I don't blame you for worrying. It's just what parents do.
Geesh...I cant believe I missed this post and wasnt able to let you know I would be thinking about you. ((hugs))
I am glad all went ok.
((hugs)) again because I would have felt exactly the same way you did!
I know what you mean. Jillian had tubes put in her ears last Dec, I was worried sick. All was fine and she is a changed child.
I am glad to read ahead and see all went well for you as well:)
xox
It is totally OK to worry. Good luck to little Jack. Everything will go fine - sending all my positive energy and a big hug. :)
Worrying is what mommies do best, right?
Glad to know everything turned out okay.
Those pictures were so sweet!
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