Lately, I have been feeling very nostalgic and reminiscing over things past. More specifically, I have been thinking about the babies and how big they are getting. Watching your kids grow up is such a bitter sweet thing. I have even been thinking about what it would be like to have another baby.
Now before think that I have totally lost it and call the pych ward to admit me and Jeff, you can pick yourself up off the floor and breath.
I am, what you could say, mourning that fact that these are my last babies. I will never be pregnant again. Now, I don't really want to be pregnant again but that doesn't change the fact that I am still a little sad.
Time just goes so fast. I wish that I could slow it down just a little. I think of those early days when the babies were tiny and I hardly remember them. In a blink of an eye, they were gone.
It seems like in a beat of my heart my babies went from this, just days old...
Now before think that I have totally lost it and call the pych ward to admit me and Jeff, you can pick yourself up off the floor and breath.
I am, what you could say, mourning that fact that these are my last babies. I will never be pregnant again. Now, I don't really want to be pregnant again but that doesn't change the fact that I am still a little sad.
Time just goes so fast. I wish that I could slow it down just a little. I think of those early days when the babies were tiny and I hardly remember them. In a blink of an eye, they were gone.
It seems like in a beat of my heart my babies went from this, just days old...
Quinn Richard
Jacob Jay
Claire Suzanne... to rambunctious 1 and half year old toddlers with ideas, wills and voices all their own.
There is not a day that goes by that I don't think about how blessed we truly are. I know that there is so much more coming in the future, many many more adventures, and I don't know how many times I will make a post like this again.
But for now, the babies over the last 17 months.
But for now, the babies over the last 17 months.
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Oh girl I totally know how you feel. When I finally made the decision to have my tubes tied I regretted my decision for weeks and months after I did it. Don't get me wrong I knew I didn't want to have anymore kids, I have 2 beautiful children a girl and boy and my girl just turned 17 and will be on her own in just awhile.
And my boy will be 11 next month.
But there are still days where I wish I could do it again. I don't think I could mentally do it again but nonetheless.
I live through my friends and family who keep on havin babies. I think when my day comes to be a Grandma I am gonna be the best and love on those babies like no other.
Thanks for sharing your precious babies photos and for takin us down memory lane with you.
My husband read somewhere that it's actually hormonal - babies emit pheromones up until about 1 1/2 - 2. God's little way of you staying in love with the one you have, before moving onto another.
Believe me, my "baby" is 2 1/2. How I miss those pheromones!!
Tubes tied for me. I'll take my two boys and go have a great adventure.
(not that I don't think about it some times to - don't tell anyone.)
Em
Ah, feeling the same way! We already have 3; however as my youngest is quickly approaching 4 and my oldest in turning 9, I miss having a wee one around. I couldn't wait for them to walk...talk...use the potty etc., now I wish they were tiny again. Life can be such an emotional rollercoaster.
You scared me just a little bit there! I know a little how you feel though. Grayson is getting so big...over 15 pounds already and cooing and laughing. I know we will have more but I think back to when Aidan was a baby and just feel a little sad that he is getting so big. It goes so fast, I guess only a mother could understand that!
I know that feeling all too well!!
it would seem that you and i are having very similar days...
(oops, posted before i was done)
i hate days like this where it all seems to be moving too fast and i just cannot keep up. but it is moving too fast, and i can't keep up. and that makes me sad :(
Very cute babies, very small babies. They make my girl look like the Friendly Giant when she was born.
sweet babies! and you know, i thought b was my last one...then i thought jk was...then sofie came along...well, i guess i quit thinking. hey, there's always fostering kids in the future!
I have those moments, too...
My girls will tell me we can always adopt one!
Love seeing all the pics... see how they've grown.
Cute babies. Cute toddlers.
How precious! They do grow up SO fast! If you need a baby fix, just come on over! One fussy baby & one spit-up soaked shirt will get you over the reminscing phase very quickly! :)
You are SO blessed, Jen ... so, so blessed :)
HUGS!
You are certainly blessed but how you can even think (even if for a split second) of having more if you could, is beyound me! I envy your mothering. I love my children and wish I could keep them here with me forever, but there is NO WAY I would do it again! Whew!
I know the feeling. After 2 incredibly difficult pregnancies, Shane and I decided no more kiddos. I was fine with that decision. I was fine when Shane had his vasectomy (I could still have another baby if I chose.), but when health reasons forced me to have a hysterectomy, bring the mourning on. It's a hard thing.
What awesome photos - thanks for sharing them with us.
I admit I got a teensy bit excited when I saw the title of this post. hehe.
That's why I worked in the nursery at a daycare for a while - got all that baby loving, and also plenty of sleep at night...
You do have GORGEOUS babies.
Wow, I was worried there for a moment! It is sad to think you will never change another diaper or wake up for a 3 am feeding. I got over it quickly! You have made beautiful babies! and I'm sure they will be beautiful toddlers, teenagers and adults!
I think it is natural to look back at what was and ache a little bit. I still think that kids are born to break your heart. This is my last two and I try to look at how far we've come and in a couple years (hopefully, 10) my oldest will be ready for my grandkids. AHHHHHH!!!
I'm feeling the baby ache too... Dottie is barrelling towards two... every day there is less baby in her to snuzzle and it causes me physical pain....
Not enough to go and get pregnant again though... I don't think...
How cute and tiny were (are) they. You are a brave woman. I can't imagine what it would be like getting three all at one time!
And aren't we thrilled to have them all!--including big brother, Hayden. They bring lots of joy to all of us, but I agree with your decision that enough is enough!:-)
How cute, they were so tiny.
I can so relate to how you are feeling. My son is 18 months and I miss his 'baby' days so much.
Oh they are so adorable!! But I still just can't imagine having triplets!! And then wanting more? ;) they do grow up entirely too fast!! But at least they have that sweet baby head smell until they are at least 3! :)
it is so fun to look at pictures of them.
and i want another too! i might actually have another. maybe adopt.
babyyyy fever
Great post. I have been feeling very similar these days and actually wrote a similar post when my daughter turned 3.
I was at Target yesterday and I saw this newborn baby and I swear I thought "I. MUST. HOLD. THAT. BABY." and it was kind of weird. Very primitive.
I can't believe my baby is eight months old already! It seems like the time just gets away from you.
Ooooh! They were so teeney tiny!! I've been going through the same longings myself. I love the things Jackson is doing right now, but I am sad because the "baby stage" is quickly fading away....
I think that we always will think about babies. For me it is the need, they do not need me as much because they are getting older. 12 and 6 is not really that old but they do not need me to get them ready for bed, they do not need me to help as much, but they still need me. But trying to get my 12 year old to sit on my lap and let me hold her is not going to happen. It is sad and yet so wonderful all at the same time.....am I making any sense? I hope so.
OMG they are SO adorable!! I know what you mean about wanting one more--I have 5 but I would love one more. Hubby's not into the idea though--darn it!!
Those newborn pictures are amazing! So tiny! I'm kind of starting to get baby fever again. Do NOT tell my husband, though, he wanted to "knock me up" again about four seconds after we brought our daughter home from the hospital. I think I can fight the urge. It really helps when my daughter gets me up like five times a night.
I can relate to the feelings of sadness watching the baby stage fade away. There is a part of me that would want another baby, but I just can't see it happening!
My little one is my last too, and I sometimes get a little choked up when I hold babies, but, I agree I don't want to be pregnant again. When I think of what a blur it was with one, I can't imagine what a blur 3 with a toddler would be. Fortunately, as fast as they grow, they never stop being interesting. When I get choked up about them growing so fast, I remind myself about what amazing experiences I have ahead, and that usually helps.
what adorable babies. i can't imagine having three at once.
my hubby and i have a 9 month old, and for the past few weeks i've really felt like i want another. i don't want my kids that close (like three years is what i always thought) but i'm feeling the pull for another baby.
i think it's because my little man doesn't like to be held and cuddle anymore. he is crawling all over, climbing all over, and doesn't ever stop moving--even when he's asleep! i miss that warm, cuddly, sweet-smelling newborn.
Those babies are so cute. And now that they are toddlers they are even cuter.
I do miss my babies being babies. One day they were infants and in a few weeks they will be 7 and 9. So sad....
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