This is another therapy session. Come on people, I have triplets, I need a lot of sessions.
Dearest Babies,
I am so sorry that you all are sick. I guess we know that fall is here, colder weather, leaves starting to change and snotty stuffy noses. I am so sorry that you all got another cold. This is just going to be the first of many as we begin the season.
I just want to let you know that is breaks my heart that I can not hold and rock all of you while you are sick. I really wish that I had a magic button that I could push and when you needed it, I could make more of myself.
I had to choose Jacob. He was the sickest and his breathing seemed bad. I would have chosen you, Quinn in a heart beat. And Claire, you were on the top of my list. I am sorry that you had to cry yourselves to sleep. I would have given anything to hold you all and rock you until sleep surrounded you. I don't think you know how much it hurts me that I can't be 3 people, that I can't be there for you all when you need me the most.
Yes, I chose Jacob and I sat and rocked him until he was fast asleep, I did enjoy every minute but I too cried. I cried with you, Claire and you, Quinn. I cried until you fell asleep. I cried because I could not comfort you. I cried because you had to comfort yourselves. I cried because it just does not seem fair.
Even though there are 3 of you, there is only one of me. I am doing the best that I can. I am sure this is not the first time that I had to choose just one of you or will it be the last. Just know that I don't think that it will ever get easier and I will still cry with you just the same.
Sleep now my sweet, sick babies. I love you all more than words can say. Tomorrow should be a better day. I promise to fill it with lots of hugs and cuddles and try to take away all the sickies.
~Mommy
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Big squeezies Sweetie - that has to be really hard...
Oh Jen, I hope Jeff takes a minute to hold you after all that. I hate it when there needs to be more than one of me. The Target vapor bath is our friend this time of year. Bath's for everyone I say.
I let two of mine play in the shower for an hour today, just trying to clear their heads. Hang in there.
Jen, I can't imagine it. God has obviously given you triplets because he knew you could handle it. You and Jeff together. What doesn't kill you will make you stronger. And, occasionally, it will make you laugh.
Now, go have a beer and relax!
It's so hard to see one sick, I can't imagine THREE! That's a lotta tissues. Hang in there. And drink wine.
Oh Jen, I'd be there in a heartbeat to help you! The only problems I can see would be the flight across the world and my two kids who would be sure to catch it too. But surely we could manage 6 kids between the two of us?
Hang on, no, I'm doing the math and that works out as the same number of adults for the same number of kids.
How about we keep your Hayden and my two apart from the babies so they don't catch it, and then ... ummm...
HIRE SIX NANNIES! Yess!
You bring the wine, I'll bring the Kleenex.
I'm on my way, my family is driving me nuts... rocking a sweet snotty baby sounds divine right now...
thanks for stopping by my blog today!
I hope everybody is feeling better soon. It has to be so frustrating to have them all sick at the same time. I will be thinking of you. You and your family are in my prayers.
here's a little dose of encouragement...and a cyber hug. you are doing a great job momma...and ur babies know how much u love them. like the pediatrician told me once, no kid has ever died because they cried themselves to sleep...
i know you want to be super mom, so look for your cape tomorrow...get some rest now and rock them all and cuddle them when you get just a few seconds.
keep it up momma...
Breaks my heart just reading it! I've had those moments with my two .. I can't imagine it with more.
Rock on, mama .. rock on
Oh sweets. *hugs* I'd come and hold sick babes for you if I could.
That has just gotta be so hard. I feel stretched three ways at times, but with the other two being older, it does help. Being a nurse helps you with the "triaging" of the sickest baby, but being a mom means you're gonna have mommy guilt no matter which one you choose.
Sigh...you can only do so much, then let God do the rest.
Thanks so much for your encouraging words to me this week; they really helped.
:( Oh Jen, my heart hurts for you and your babies today...What an agonizing situation to be in. Luckily the babies will never remember this; unfortunately, you will. Follow your own words and know you are doing the best you can and you are one awesome Mommy to ALL your kids!!
There's only one of you. Don't be so hard on yourself. This is hard enough.
What a very special mommy Quinn, Claire and Jacob have. Thanks for sharing the special challenges, and blessings, being the mom of triplets brings. Your babies, all of them, are going to be great kids because of what you invest of yourself in them.
Oh my goodness, I cannot even imagine! That hurts MY heart, I can only imagine yours. The only thing worse than a baby with labored breathing is two more crying on top of his...yikes! I'm so glad you're a nurse. Could I send some extra hugs for you to give?
Oh, that's so sweet and so sad. Don't worry, they won't remember it. They'll just remember how much you love them.
Ok, I'm crying with you Jen! I had just a little taste of a similar situation today while watching a little girl the same age as my daughter. Two howling, upset babies, and only one lap. I can only imagine how hard it is when they are ALL yours, too! I think that all of the special times that come from being a triplet will manage to far outweigh any heartache they experience right now. What a precious entry for them to read later, too.
...hold on...wiping tears from eyes...sniff...OK, here's a BIG hug! Hope tomorrow brings an improvement in their condition...oh, that sounded so "medical" of me....what I mean is - hope there is less snot, less sniffles, no fevers, fewer coughing spells, and happier less fussy/needy/sick children in your household! You're an awesome mom Jen!
Big hugs to the babies and some wine to you!
I am in tears, you are so eloquent on letting us in on what its like to have 3 babies.
Thank you for sharing...even the sad stuff.
I want to cry with you - I have been in similar situations. Big hug for you. Love & light girl, hope all will be better soon.
Oh, Jen! I'm sorry you had a rough day... hope the babies get to feeling better soon!
You said it yourself... you are doing the best you can. Those kiddos of yours know you love them and would do anything for them!
Oh, no, you almost had me in tears. Poor babies. I'm so sorry they were sick. :o(
Hi, I'm just catching up on my regular reads (sick baby for me, too). Just wanted to let you know that I am sending "get healthy" vibes out there. I can't even imagine how hard that must've been for you to only be able to hold Jake. You are a great mom and doing the best that one person can do!! {{hugs}}
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